You’re not delusional – YouTube Dictation Transcript & Vocabulary

1.if you're seeing this video you probably have a hard time trusting your intuition okay you have a hard time believing that you're not delusional and I want to say that the collective I'm reading for the reason you have this distrust is because there maybe was a time in your life where you were actually delusional like there was a time in your life where you're like oh my God like I want this or this is going to happen this is going to happen but you weren't actually energetically aligned to that reality so there could have been a period of time within this Collective where you had to narrow in on that Queen of Swords energy like be realistic right now like I need to protect my feelings so to protect my feelings I need to make sure that I am being realistic and I'm showing up for myself regardless on whether that's being delusional towards a a future goal being delusional towards like a relationship a person whatever the energy may be the shift here your spirituality is [ __ ] deepening like when I mean deepening I mean like deepening this is like if you want to be a spiritual teacher if you've wanted to be a spiritual teacher if you just have a hard time trusting your intuition in general if you maybe want to create like a new career goal for yourself like this is going to elevate your life in so many ways but the biggest message here right now tall whites is the first card out which is literally a card of distrust and then we have Alpha centurions which is a card about your future and then we have Len which is mirroring the distrust card which is a card about confidence so what is happening right now is things that you used to be delusional about you are going to get the same intuition that you used to get except this time it's not delusional you're not delusional this time I swear you're not delusional this time so it's like you may even have this feeling you're like yeah like in in a relationship say you're in a relationship and you just have this intuition you're like maybe they're just going to text me or like maybe they're just going to show up like maybe maybe I'm going to see this person if I go out tonight and your your mind is like no like you're being delusional like and you're doing that to protect yourself you're like no I'm being delusional and then it actually happens things like this are going to be happening in your life to confirm that you are actually aligned to your intuition now because of the healing that you've done okay like it's not delusional anymore you're not delusional anymore I promise um obviously take this if it resonates especially if you feel that you've been in that like Queen of Swords energy for a while so this is like balancing the scal scales now still being able to protect yourself but also knowing that when you feel something you don't need to consistently not believe that it's true to protect yourself and you can actually lean into the fact that if it happens amazing confirmation in your intuition if it doesn't you're okay like you don't need to be like oh my God no it's not going to happen um let me keep going oh my God shut the [ __ ] up guys okay third eye just came out this is literally what I'm saying your intuition so this is actually clarifying the tall tall whites card which is literally confirming the fact that there is distrust here in your intuition there is an energy and a fear of being delusional okay so this is putting you I'm feeling North Node energy I'm actually going to pull after I get one more card for my astrology deck for you guys getting heavy Pisces energy okay heavy Pisces Pisces Mars uh Pisces Venus maybe Pisces Moon Sun Moon Rising like I'm getting heavy Pisces energy so Alpha centurions being the card about future planning like looking at the future seeing the future planning the future cabal Tre of life is out here in your subconscious mind which is telling me that you have just closed out a huge family generational cycle okay this is a core wound of not trusting yourself that is literally it and you had to be in a period of delusion to recognize oh this is not serving me and then come out of that period of delusion and be an extreme strategy and now you're coming back into both okay you're coming back into alignment here so whatever future plans you have you are being called to lean into your intuition if your intuition says oh my God I want to be a [ __ ] model like oh my God I want to be a Sor I want to um trust that this relationship is actually being real for me I want to trust that like I'm getting an intuition about this person and that doesn't mean I have to cling to it but it doesn't mean that my intuition is wrong like whatever you're feeling intuitively lean into it okay cuz it's real it's [ __ ] real I cannot stress that enough like this Collective I just feel like you're like yeah I mean I guess it could be like it's real and you're going to after you see this video if you're seeing this I bet you there's going to be things that start happening where you doubt yourself and you're like no it's not going to happen and then it [ __ ] happens and it's literally the universe being like [ __ ] open your eyes open your eyes you are actually not delusional open your eyes and then your guides are literally doing this to strengthen the trust that you have within your body you've closed out a past life cycle this is literally the past life card and when Ora Boris is in the reverse position it literally talks about going in circles not moving not going anywhere doing the same thing over and over again expecting the same result so when this card is upright it's like I finally am doing something different I'm seeing something different and I'm breaking out of a cycle that's kept me stuck for a long time the merkaba is clarifying Len so this does signify longdistance travel so if you are feeling intuitively called to move or intuitively called to like maybe you're going to get a job opportunity that's going to require you to move that could be something in your plans especially if that is something you're intuitively feeling maybe that's confirmation for someone but this is is also a card about your body this is literally a card about feeling something so strongly in your body that you cannot deny it that is what you're being called to listen to when it comes to trusting your intuition is when you feel something so strongly in your body your mind can you can just recognize it just recognize and be like okay maybe it'll happen maybe it doesn't but from what you learned in that Queen of Swords energy is okay I feel it in my body and I can't deny that because that' be invalidating my emotions so I'm saying okay I feel it in my body Queen of Swords energy is there's no need to cling on to it that's what you learned in within being logical within being the Queen of Swords is the ability to see it and detach but that doesn't mean it's not real it doesn't mean it's not true it's balanced with an openhearted energy you're seeing it you're protecting yourself by not attaching and you're not pushing it away or holding on to it you're just seeing it for what it is that is the energy that your guides are wanting you to be in that is actually causing you to manifest things in your reality very quickly because you're now in Balance you are no longer Clinging On to the idea of your Intuition or fantasizing your intuition you're just feeling it in your body observing it letting whatever happen needs to happen Okay let's get into my astrology deck this is so exciting I'm so excited for you you've literally come so far you should take yourself out to dinner maybe I'll do that tonight okay let's see guys an elephant could be significant cuz I just literally was like oh my God guys I got this cute bag yesterday and I got this elephant chain I was just thinking of it so I was like maybe an elephant is significant or the color orange too which is literally your feminine energy okay let's see just watch [ __ ] I was literally just going to say just watch [ __ ] Pisces comes out the moon which is literally ruled by it's ruled by cancer actually but in Tarot it's ruled by Pisces see tall whites this is the card about not trusting yourself it's being clarified by the moon there's a perspective shift happening within you your moon sign could also be significant here as well like this is about trusting your emotions trusting your feelings at one point in your life there definitely was like a an illusion perceived through your emotions so it's like if you feel something you immediately like fantasize make it fantasy so you feel someone else's energy and you might have immediately been like this we're meant to be together this is going to happen forever and then you cling to what it is that you're feeling you create a reality from what you're feeling instead of like I said previous just feeling it and allowing it to be what it is that's something that's shifting for you here and the moon card is actually 19 which is number 10 so again this is a really big shift Within your relationships actually cuz tall whites is number two alpha look at this 20 and then the card next to it is two and then the card next to it is 11 so 222 is very significant for this pile 33 is also very significant but within it being two this is actually something about partnership so for you guys specifically watching this this is actually you aligning with things happening in your relationships that you're able to actually remain grounded but there's going to be a lot of intuition happening in your relationships so if you're in a relationship and you're feeling like oh maybe this is going to happen or maybe this is going to happen practice not clinging to it but recognizing and validating okay well this could most possibly be true and then it happens okay so things like that could be happening in your in your relationships like you go on a dating app and you're like I kind of feel like kind of feel like I might have like a experience with this person and you're like well I mean I guess we'll see if that happens and then it happens and you're like oh what the [ __ ] I was actually right like that's the energy it's giving like Venus coming through that's what I mean guys Alpha Centurion here you have a relationship coming through here in the near future interesting this is really opening your heart chakra it's like you've been really scared to believe that love is real like love exists that's actually how this feels like love exists outside of yourself that's something that maybe has been really hard for you to believe because of this pattern or this healing period that you went through of needing to be logical you don't have to be logical anymore like you don't have to be logical anymore to protect yourself you're able now to open your heart and protect yourself when you need to but you don't need to protect yourself all the time against any intuitive hit that you get here you guys are healing from like codependency on spirituality that's why I'm getting Pisces Mars because I personally I have a Pisces Mars and Pisces Mars is like the way you escape conflict is literally through delusion so you could also Escape conflict through spiritual delusion or spiritual ego so if you're feeling conflicted about a relationship you're going to lean into the idea that you're meant to be together with that person instead of looking at reality and like grounding yourself into showing up for yourself in ways that may maybe that person isn't so if you have a Pisces Mars or you have a water sign Mars or you deal with conflict in a way of like kind of going through spirituality it's like your spirituality is deepening in a more realistic way because of a period that you went through of Detachment clarifying lens which is a lion confidence is being clarified by Leo see it says you actually feeling confident to see yourself like you are whoever I'm talking to you are very spiritual you are very spiritual you very intuitive you're very empathic and that is a part of yourself that you have maybe had felt as if you had to deny to protect yourself not anymore not anymore though and then here bro that's what I said I was like this is putting you into your North Node right that's what I was getting so maybe look at your North Node if you don't know what it is third eye which is 33 so we have 33 which is the Mera and 33 so again 20 222 33 is huge out here and this is self node is clarifying third eye so you had some this is interesting actually because this is sou no is about your past Lives who you used to be patterns that you're letting go of in this lifetime in your past in a past life maybe there was a time where you your spirituality was like kept you alive or your spirituality got you killed like you could have been very spiritual maybe like a spiritual teacher a leader very intuitive maybe you're like a witch if you know where I'm going with that but there is like a a distrust within your intuition because of either a past life where you're consistently getting invalidated or called crazy or you know like which which like that's an energy of like you're not real like this isn't real you're evil so it's actually a lot deeper the distrust that you have in your intuition is a lot deeper than than what you think it is it's not just this lifetime which is why oh my God I forgot that I pulled this on the bottom past life yeah there's like a big energy being R ridiculed for your intuition okay so you're breaking out of that [ __ ] this it's actually safe for you to trust your intuition now you're actually supposed to use your intuition to be seen in this lifetime this this lifetime it's like people are like oh my God oh my God that's amazing like thank you you're helping me and in past lifetimes it's like which which a you're really healing a huge cycle I'm so proud of you you send it out please you're saw Neptune bro send it out it's just Scorpio as well Scorpio cancer okay see the fourth house clarifying cabala Tre cabal Tre is is the card about the core wound here so there is a really big aspect right now you actually finding a clear sense of home and stability within your relationships that's literally it alphas and tyin with Venus fourth house which is the kapala tree you're attracting a relationship that's genuinely healthy because you are learning to trust yourself within balance so I'm going to pull tarot on this um specific section because I do feel that you're coming into alignment with a relationship and not only a relationship here yeah that's we have second house resources this is Taurus energy Taurus and Leo are really loud out here so within your career as well for a lot of you that are watching the more you trust what you feel so if you are like oh my god it feels in my body like when I think about being a singer or I think about being an actor or I think about being an architect like if it makes you feel so alive trust your intuition that that is your body saying go for it this is going to be successful you're actually learning to trust your body again after a period of maybe not being able to trust your body so that's going to require you to like go over leaps you know it's not not going to be easy but this is what you're being called to do right now is be confident be loud be seen see your body see your emotion see how you feel and follow that it's safe to follow your feelings clarify this energy Wheel of Fortune coming through on the relationship section see this is faded you're meeting somebody that's faded it's this is actually like you're meeting somebody that you actually might be coming into alignment with of both of you guys elev together so if this is somebody that has a similar Vision somebody has a similar Vision to you and it may not be in the same career but it's like you both are like okay I have this goal and I want to reach this goal like so you guys are going to try to reach this energy together something about your drive your passion is going to be the same this is somebody that you're supposed to do things with here you're actually going to be releasing a lot of anxiety in this connection this could be a pattern for this person as well if you are the feminine energy and you've learned to protect yourself through the Queen of Swords this is somebody that's actually going to protect you in a physical way like you're meant to be protected yeah death is literally on the bottom of my deck right now confor [ __ ] mation with that burp here yeah the justice okay so I things I really want you to watch out for when meeting other people cuz obviously for some of you maybe you'll meet this person soon for some of you maybe it'll be a while like Wheel of Fortune is literally when it's meant to happen it'll happen like it's faded so fate does require a choice so I just want to say I mean this Collective is not delusional so I'm actually not even going to [ __ ] say that taking that out of my mouth I'm throwing it what I'm getting here is this could be somebody that has the same South no South node and North Node as you so somebody that's like learning the same past life lessons somebody that has the same Mars sign um potentially someone that has either the same or opposite Venus also want you to look for oppositions as well because opposition was coming out multiple times so this could be somebody like if you're a cancer they could be a Capricorn you know if you're an Aries they could be a Libra Libra is also out here but there's something here about you guys like having a very similar life lesson and therefore helping each other work through problems and anxiety this is going to be a relationship like if you're somebody that's like a hard worker this is going to be a connection that isn't necessarily just like oh smooth and easy like it feels karmic and a karmic connection doesn't mean it's not going to be positive it doesn't mean you can't be together forever it just means that your connection may be a little bit harder because it's like it's like you get something and you buy it and then you you fix it and then it's even better than it was or you can just buy a new one buying a new one is going to be easier buying something and fixing it is going to be a little bit harder but more rewarding that's like a karmic connection a kic connection is like if you both choose to put in the effort and you both choose to put in the work it's going to be a little bit challenging than like a just natural soulmate connection with no past life ties but it feels like your soul kind of like wanted a difficult C connection I'm not saying the connection is going to be hard I just mean that you guys are going to be facing internal challenges that are going to help you grow and Elevate when it comes to trusting your intuition and choosing to let go choosing to slow down choosing to trust yourself so your soul is like Hey we're going to it's like you and this person met up before this lifetime and you're like okay we're going to do this you're going to go through this [ __ ] hard ass life I'm going to go through this hard ass life and we're going to meet and we're going to elevate together okay we're going to f [ __ ] do that [ __ ] like that's how this feels right now so that's the vibe of this connection this is really going to resonate for you if you just feel like you're somebody that's like a hard worker like you're just like maybe you've got some Capricorns here um maybe you've got some cancers Cardinal energy for sure but this is definitely faded this is definitely faded for you and you're safe to trust your intuition okay I love you I love you so much I please please please let me know how this resonated this message came to me so strongly I'm really excited to post this and I'm really excited to see who this reaches um please like the video subscribe turn on my post notifications if you'd 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